On Saturday, Kimberly and I took the most important step people can take at this point in our lives: we got married! Normally, in our relationship, Kimberly says that I do better at speaking my mind in words, however this time Kimberly schooled me with our vows. I have included them below, but allow me to explain first that most of what she is saying are quotes directly out of the many, many mix tapes that I have given her over the last two and half years.
Here is what she wrote:
I can tell you the first moment I knew I was falling in love with you, it was like a tidal wave of emotion and as I’m writing/saying this I feel it again. I feel it every time. I was listening to one of the many cd’s you made me, this one was shortly after our first kiss, which in itself was life changing, the kind you see in movies, where your world stops but everyone and everything continues to spin around you. “Hands does this is the best day I can ever remember, you kissed me like you meant it, and I knew you meant it” “did you expect to kiss me one time, while looking at me with the same eyes ever again?” I was listening to the words that you chose, the words you were thinking of when you were thinking of me, the words you used to tell me how you felt about me. You used music to tell me you loved me, knowing how much music is my life line, my fuel and my soul you expressed your love to me with in a way only I could appreciate. Those songs coming from you meant more to me then I can express and I know they do to you as well. Because music is your life line, your fuel and your soul. You opened up your heart and let me into your world; mixed tapes are the love notes to the soul right? ;]
“I’m lucky to be in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where I have been, lucky to be coming home again.” “All my life I’ve been searching for you, how did I survive in this world before you, cause I don’t wanna live another day without you now” “this is our fate, I’m yours.”
“do you ever get the feeling that we started in the middle?” This connection we have shared feels like we have known each other forever. You know my heart, my thoughts, you know me better then I do half the time. You are my partner and my strength. “and when you’re soaring through the air, I’ll be your solid ground, take every chance you dare, I’ll still be there, when you come back down.” I never knew a love like this existed in real life, someone who truly understood me, who knew me and just simply loved me. “I never dreamt it’d be like this, you’ve surpassed all that I’ve hoped for and ever wished, and I’m trying so hard, with all my heart and mind, to make your life as good as you’ve made mine” “you figured me out, something gave it away, it is such a beautiful moment to see the look on our face, to know that I know that you know now.” “I’ll give my love to you, for you to keep for the rest of your life, oh and happiness will surely be ours and that will be alright, yes it would.”
“You don’t seem to know the word impossible, don’t care where I’ve been and don’t care where we’re going to. You take me as I am and that ain’t easy. You’re beautiful, so beautiful. And sometimes I think your truly crazy, and I love it” With you “my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so won’t you kill me, so I die happy, my heart is your to fill or burst.” “I’ll be the other hand that always holds the line connecting in between your sweet heart and mine.”
“I look around at what I got, and without you it ain’t a lot, but I got everything, with you everything” “let me be the one who calls you baby all the time, surely you can take some comfort knowing that your mine” “nothing will ever be as good as here and now” “cause when I looked into your eyes, and you dared to stare right back, you should have said nice to meet you, I’m your other half.”
You are my teammate, my love, my handsome man and everything I never knew I wanted. I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with you, and when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.” I love you best friend.
There is so much about what she wrote that still makes me cry, however, she wasn’t done yet. Kimberly has been hiding my wedding band from me for months now because she had engraved something on it (which is the most I knew about it). As it turns out something I’ve said to her numerous times struck an idea. There are many nights that I will just lay on Kimberly and listen to her heartbeat and one night I told her that I could listen to her heartbeat forever. After talking to several of my co-workers and masters in our field, Kimberly had her heartbeat recorded and the waveform of it engraved on my ring so that not only can my wedding band remind me of our promise to each other, but that her heart beats for me……
This is truly a love that I don’t deserve, but that is how we know that God is good: when we get what we don’t deserve and when we don’t get what we do deserve.
There are many more things that happened on Saturday that will be explained over the years, but for now the newest thing is that Kimberly started a blog to catalog our marriage. She blogs at kimbyanncole.wordpress.com called “Seredipitous Kind of Love.”
This, here, is the art of speaking your heart…